tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3617470164862521495.post3082613284301455050..comments2011-08-15T13:39:36.613-06:00Comments on Corianton's Chronicles: Just kind of hanging in there:)Brianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07125204193207488276noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3617470164862521495.post-91968939124912419382011-08-14T18:21:45.548-06:002011-08-14T18:21:45.548-06:00Thanks for your comments, Neal ! Today, I am reall...Thanks for your comments, Neal ! Today, I am really just trying to get myself "kick started"...it IS hard ! But things get easier to picture succeeding at if I just make the effort. Little successes feed off themselves and I'm very motivated by little successes. Little by little is the only way to start new good habits.<br /><br />Lately, I've felt almost "floaty". Not stressed by circumstances in my life, but almost like I'm in a form of suspended animation. I go through the motions of doing things in life, but not feeling super joy and enthusiasm for anything either. What will snap me out of this?<br /><br />I've often dreamed and planned of my life as a functional gay man with a new job and being very involved in the gay community in Edmonton. It becomes enervating rather than empowering, so I try to not think to much about that until the other issues in my life that have built up have been dealt with. I still hold onto those thoughts to give me something to anticpate. However, I totally realize that I must face problems, or they will never go away, and will continue to plague my peace and tranqullity, no matter how my circumstances do change for the better.<br /><br />So there needs to be a balance....working diligently to work through my backlog, and rewards from time to time...doing things in my new life that bring me joy.Brianhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07125204193207488276noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3617470164862521495.post-18881637610789233782011-08-08T05:23:20.196-06:002011-08-08T05:23:20.196-06:00Hmmm. We have a lot of the same problems. I'm ...Hmmm. We have a lot of the same problems. I'm trying to get back into the scripture/prayer routine and it is ridiculously hard for me. I think its just that I've read them so many times that its a "chore" - I'm not reading because I'm into it. <br /><br />I suck at excercise unless I have a friend to exercise with me. Hard to come by, I'm afraid. Anyway, keep trying is all we can do, right?Nealhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03943975175380497835noreply@blogger.com